How has life changed? How have you changed?
I was a very busy career woman who was working in Samsung before Covid and I used to be so mad at other person’s mistake and to judge other people on the base of my situation and never try to put myself in other’s shoes. I couldn’t get along with the colleagues who put me a great disadvantage in my opinion and used to get them wrong rather than understand why they should act like that. Sometimes, whenever I was so busy,I was not even kind to the customers who I feel some annoying.
But after pandemic, I should be alone and the time I need to be alone was getting longer than I expected, I started to miss all people who I met and I was with before Covid, even the colleagues I hated. And I realized all people giving me hardship before, must be the angels who have been training my personality and trimming my bad attitudes about the life. I found how much precious were all people I could meet and talk.
And I end up starting to be changed in a good way. Even though other person made a mistake, I could smile and forgive. I became be able to embrace what the others made wrong, and to embrace the difference between me and other friends. Even more I could take care of others who are lonely because I experienced how much sad being alone is.
Covid limited , bounded and grounded us but through this kind limitation, when we stop everything what we have been doing and step back, and look around others, we could consider them and empathy them. Eventually we can change ourselves from the one who were stuck into the trap to the helper. I think that’s the reason The Creator of this universe sent us Covid.
Important Highlights: Any silver linings?
I was having hardship to spend my time alone and so afraid what is going to happen down the road. Once I started to worry, I was taken capture into this kind hopeless thought and cannot do anything. But from now on, I have decided not to think anymore what is going to happen in the future, and just be thankful if I am ok today . I thought if something happens tomorrow, I would worry tomorrow, it would not be late. If I am enough to live today and I would be happy and I would love all people around me when I can love them.
Difficulties: What has been challenging?
All the last year 2019, I have been being sick and wishing I could apply to the disability. And from time to time I pray to God I wanted to take a little rest and to study rather than keep working. To tell the truth, I have been racking my brain to find out some way I can get supported by worker’s compensation insurance.
But I made a conclusion that I cannot lie and neither deceive the insurance company to get some advantage and gave up.
But this year, due to pandemic, I turned out getting supported the EDD and I registered to the Ohlone College. I would like study more during this pandemic period and take an opportunity to improve myself.
I was so seriously sorry for the all world going through this tough period, because it feels like the creator of this world sent this Covid for me. That is a joke.
What do you hope for 2021?
I hope all this world people who is very selfish, arrogant like me, become more careful and generous toward others and more humble. Rather than pursuing to fill my greed and trying to get more, take more grab more, I hope we can looking back ourselves and reflect ourselves in our mind and heart deeply and we would think what we have been wrong and what we need to correct in our life. I really hope this Pandemic period would be the time we are reflecting and cleaning our life and mind rather than the time complaining our reality and blaming others. and from 2021, I hope everybody change to the one who are with warm heart and take care each other .
Submitted by Soon Oh, Alameda County – Fremont.
This was submitted as part of the Education and Literacy Services Program at Alameda County Library.